Stages of Life

Today I woke up in a decent mood. I laid in bed for about 10 mins thinking why the hell I get up so early. Then I realized its because now I have a job. I think and ponder how wonderful life was before growing up. You were born, you got fed every hour to every few hours, you crapped and wet yourself, you got burped, changed, and you were pushed around in this high fashion stroller all day while you slept. And those were just your baby years. As we grew up things started to change. They took away the eating every hour and knocked it down to 4 times a day. We got forced to sit on this cold piece of concrete, that didn't even make a fun noise, we were forced to walk every where, and some even had a leash. And most important our nap time is cut in half. Now we are passed out toddler years and into pre-teens even MORE is changing. We eat 3 times a day, forced to go to this place where we are also forced to learn things, we no longer get naps; yet we are always tired. Also we are getting these feelings of caring, and behaving, when all we want to do is not care. Now we are have moved onto our teens. We have been in this institution where we are forced to learn for a few years now, and we still hate it as much as we did the first day. Our body parts start to change, and some even their voices. We start falling into love easily, and then get broken hearted even easier. We are pushed into getting jobs, I guess its to prove we can be responsible; they say its a life lesson. So we end up getting jobs where we work twice as hard as we get paid. These are also the years sleep deprivation sets in. As we are approaching adult hood, nothing seems the same. Some of us are going to school and wasting money on something over half of them won't even use when done. Others are out working barely making ends meet. We are now stressed, and our hair went from normal to gray in some cases. We fall in love, get married, some get divorced and half of their earnings are just taken away. Our bodies change so much, we feel the need for children. We give birth, and the stages of life repeats itself. Now we are past adulthood, our kids are grown, and now we are just old. We now crap and wet ourselves. We get naps, and some even get pushed around while they nap. Others get fed again, and burped again. Needless to say, life is a rollercoaster, just get on and enjoy, don't regret your decisions and don't blink, because this ride could change at any moment.

Update on Life

So I haven't been on this for a while. So I had surgery on Sept 29th, and its almost been 5 months. I have only lost about 30lbs, if that. But they said my weightloss is going good. I don't know, I just feel I should be losing more. Not a ton more but just more. I wanted to be down 70lbs by my birthday so I am going to have to start working hard. Plus I want to look good for when my boyfriend comes home from Afghanistan.

Speaking of which, I am kind of confused. I am dating an amazing man, who makes me happy, and feel beautiful. He is a US Marine, but doesn't act like the typical marine, OR military man. But I am not going to get ahead of myself and say what I hope to see from us. I am just going to say, I am taking it day by day. But the confusing part is that, my x "hubby" is now jealous and being sweet. Trust me, I am not going to do anything, I care about my boyfriend. Its just weird because he is acting how I always wanted him to act when we were together. I know its just cause he can't have me now and he knows that. He is jealous, he told me. Its nice to know that he actually did care about me. Its just hard when your boyfriend is away for a year to not feel confused. I know who and what I want so I would never do anything to get me into trouble or jeopardize my relationship.

So now on to a different subject... I haven't had a job since like December. OMG I hate it. I have applied for EVERYTHING, I have even followed up with jobs. So I had an interview this week on Tuesday, and they told me I would know in 2 weeks. I am going to follow up next week, just to show that I am interested and serious about this position. I did start selling Lia Sophia so at least that is going to be SOMETHING for now. Anything at this point. I just don't want to get into fast food, but who knows, I will probably have to resort to it. Well I think I am going to play with Taylor alittle, and then put her down for a nap.

Those of you who don't know, Taylor is my friends daughter, I watch her 2 times a week. She is my life and I love her so much. Well I better get to playing with her, she is bringing me stuff I have no idea where it came from.