More to Love

So I told myself I wouldn't get sucked into this show but I did. It was amazing. And it shows that bigger people can find love, even if its on tv. Not kidding when I say this... I cried. Not because of the sappy love shit but because I was in love once, and I miss it. I thought I was going to marry this person, we were engaged. But that story is down a few blogs. But I really do miss telling a man I am with I love him. Now don't think I just go off saying it, I don't. I take I love you, very seriously. I miss being able to spend the night with someone or them spend the night with me. I am so sick of being alone all the time. Its lonely. No wonder why I have gotten fatter. I don't love myself now so why would anyone else love me? ...Ugh! I just wish I could find someone who does love me. I will wait for however long because if its ment to happen, it will happen. Just wish I could at least have a boyfriend lol. Or someone who will come over and cuddle with me, kiss me, rub my back, hold my hand, things like that. If you are someone who is interested in that, please apply here! lol

Time to go cry myself to sleep... Ugh!